Fynn Behrendt: For me, Cigarettes after Sex (AT) is a story that captures the unique stage of life between 16 and 18. You’re still a teenager, but you’re confronted more and more with adult problems. These problems often feel unsolvable.
How are you supposed to come up with a rational solution in a a critical situation if you don’t even know who you are?
At this stage of life, your microcosm feels like the whole world. Your friends, your school, your relationship – everything seems so vast that any problem affecting your status in that very microcosm feels so overwhelming and ultimate, as if the whole thing is about to collapse. And what comes after that? You don’t have anything to compare it to…
This strong feeling of losing control is very intimidating and can therefore quickly lead to quite irrational and chaotic decisions.
Cigarettes after Sex (AT) takes up autobiographical experiences, including stories that I witnessed in my youth in St. Pauli.
My main character Alex doesn’t really know who she is yet and she lacks the self-confidence needed to deal with challenging situations and mistakes. She does have an idea of her own morals and values, but she is also afraid of the consequences of her actions and that she might have to ask herself uncomfortable questions about herself.
So she opts for denial and thus embarks on a path that constantly creates new problems out of an already awkward situation and is therefore inevitably doomed to failure.